As I travel through the seasons in my life, I realize how fragile the moments are with family. Some of you who know me, know that my home is full of chaos and yet I feel fully blessed.
Yes, this week is our week with the grandkids, Lexi and Tyler. They are so full of life and fun and eagerness to please. They are such good kids. I love them and they are what makes me 'fully blessed'.
Yes, it is that time in our lives where we should be experiencing the empty nest syndrome and most of the time I am on the verge of screaming "get me off this vicious ride". But, in all that matters in my life, the most important to me is giving the grandchildren a sense of normalcy. They will always have an extended family. Their father who lives with us, their grand-parents, and their Uncle who lives with us. Recently, their Aunt Britt and family moved to Kentucky from their California home. Ty and Lexi are able to see them monthly vs. yearly. Not to mention they spend a week with us and then a week with their mother.
Yes, they are constantly surrounded with the complications of having multiple authority in their life. Yet everyday Lexi awakes with a smile and a good attitude. Tyler gets a good morning hug without fail and they have a hope each day that they will be and are loved.
So, what is all the fuss about this 'empty nest' thing...
Personally, I love being surrounded with family and the constant chaos that is creating the best memories, the character of future leaders and the seasons of life just keep on coming. Bring it on.
Gatlinburg
My Family
Friday, January 29, 2010
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Whats all the spark?
I found a new website, for online tracking of weightloss, and its free.
I am tired of the same old excuses. Tonight I walked on the treadmill and got my heart rate up to 154 for about 10 minutes and then backed it down to a walking rate.
I am going to be focused this year on taking care of Rhonda. No more am I serving all others and then failing myself on what should be first priority. I grew up hearing, "if mama ain't happy, ain't nobody happy". So true for most mothers who have and will spend a life time being the passionate beings they are. They will serve their families, they will serve their communities, they will serve their co-workers. I just don't know what it is in our upbringing that put us on this path!
So, whatever it takes, nor how many times I start a new. With every breath in me, I am focusing and refocusing on the goal of 2010. I will sound very selfish, but it is going to be tha way for awhile. I am saying NO to many things until I can get a sense of well being back in my life. Things that will bring me back to a place that makes me feel good.
So, the website is a place to start Free. I need to focus on areas of discipline this year, of which one is spending - spending -spending. I am excited to say that the website
http://www.sparkpeople.com/ will give me everything I need in the way of 'tools' for success.
Join me with great encouragement as I fight to find myself this year.
I am tired of the same old excuses. Tonight I walked on the treadmill and got my heart rate up to 154 for about 10 minutes and then backed it down to a walking rate.
I am going to be focused this year on taking care of Rhonda. No more am I serving all others and then failing myself on what should be first priority. I grew up hearing, "if mama ain't happy, ain't nobody happy". So true for most mothers who have and will spend a life time being the passionate beings they are. They will serve their families, they will serve their communities, they will serve their co-workers. I just don't know what it is in our upbringing that put us on this path!
So, whatever it takes, nor how many times I start a new. With every breath in me, I am focusing and refocusing on the goal of 2010. I will sound very selfish, but it is going to be tha way for awhile. I am saying NO to many things until I can get a sense of well being back in my life. Things that will bring me back to a place that makes me feel good.
So, the website is a place to start Free. I need to focus on areas of discipline this year, of which one is spending - spending -spending. I am excited to say that the website
http://www.sparkpeople.com/ will give me everything I need in the way of 'tools' for success.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Don't Blink!
Today is one of the days where I am feeling slightly edgy about just about anything. Not sure what is going on. I think I could use a vacation, but then again, running away isn't going to change what is wrong with this feeling I have today. I should be grateful for all of the blessings in my life, but I am stuck in this crazy spot. Full of anger and frustration.
It doesn't help that I have my children with their children living with me. Nor does it help when it comes to this stage of my life when I should be enjoying an empty nest syndrome. You know it is not for us in our time of life to experience the same thing our parents experienced. The century is different, the decade is different and the age of the american dream has all but disappeared. The economy is struggling and our young people are graduating with 4 year degrees and no real possibilities in getting jobs in their field of study. Instead they are getting jobs that require them to be away from their families and away from the opportunity of the American dream. It is scary to think that we actually are moving back toward the home grown family of the prairie days, where we all chipped in to support.
It seems like just a moment ago there was a dream! Did I blink?
It doesn't help that I have my children with their children living with me. Nor does it help when it comes to this stage of my life when I should be enjoying an empty nest syndrome. You know it is not for us in our time of life to experience the same thing our parents experienced. The century is different, the decade is different and the age of the american dream has all but disappeared. The economy is struggling and our young people are graduating with 4 year degrees and no real possibilities in getting jobs in their field of study. Instead they are getting jobs that require them to be away from their families and away from the opportunity of the American dream. It is scary to think that we actually are moving back toward the home grown family of the prairie days, where we all chipped in to support.
It seems like just a moment ago there was a dream! Did I blink?
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